[Morning Freewrite]
I received a phone call from Warren Doyle who heads the circle2k
expedition.  He says that I can go!  It looks like I'll be hiking the AT
again with friends this year.  We'll see.  I think it's a great thing.  I
only hope everything works out.

What am I going to do today?  I am going to sew my practice sleeping bag
liner.  And then cut and baste my silk one.  And go to the store and submit
my resignation.  Hopefully that's it.  I don't remember anything else.  Eat
drink and be merry for tomorrow you die!

Yesterday I walked home from Renzie-Hausen outfitters at 7PM and was struck
by how noisey and lighted the streets of even a small town are.  Living
within civilization is not the ideal for me.  I want a little more
isolation.  Is there any way to achieve this?

Lights streaking towards the sky,
Noise of cars rumble,
....Hmmm this doesn't sound right.  Mor e like an "eye of newt toe of frog"
recipe than the poem style I want....
Let's see This morning I awoke to the sound of cars running through the rain
outside.  It is distinct sound that cars make.  You can hear the rain
sheeting away from their tires.  It is a louder noise than the plain sound
of them running over pavement.

One sound I like is the sound of tires running over loose pavement.  The
click-clacking as their wheels lift a block of blacktop and then let it
slide back into place.  Listen sometime when you drive slow over a road worn
by a winter's icing.

Rob Renzie-Hausen dreams of going to Alaska someday on an extended vacation.
Kayaking and biking and fishing in the wilderness with a camper.  I think
that would be a glorious way to spend a summer.  I think I'd like to hike
and kayak, but the idea is traveling among the remote wilderness.

Need to learn tokayak.  I wonder how much it costs.  It definitely costs
some to buy a kayak.  But learning?  Taking lessons?  I do not know.

First, though, the North Country Trail.  Hike-ski.  Sounds like so much
fun....

I have been thinking a bit about what I would want in a wife.  I think it
would be someone willing to go out and do things that make no money like
hiking the AT.  It would have to be someone looking within themselves for
answers.  it would have to be someone who shares/communicates with me.
Truly a hard person to find.  And before I find that person I have to be
willing to abandon my doubts about myself.  I want a  good communicator --
will I be able to communicate in return?  I want someone willing to move
around a lot -- am I someone who can do that?  Or is this only a temporary
stage?  (And one which is false to boot -- after all, I bounced from home to
Uncle's home and back to the AT.... The only actually new place I went to
was the AT the first time.... This time it will be like going home.)

[End morning freewrite]

To I_

I feel
an enourmous outpouring of affection
for you.
I hope
you don't mind
I wish
I knew if you felt the same.