[Afternoon Freewrite]
I am beginning to feel the trail stirring within me.  I can feel the urge to
move.  Gypsy is in me.

Warren said that hiking with the Circle2K group will be different and I
think it will.  I'm looking forward to it.  A band of gypsies.  Not lone
hikers, but a traveling group.

I am looking for something as always.  But what is it?

Yesterday after writing the draft of tableau I called my parents and asked
what their fight had been about.  They weren't sure.  It seems to fit that
noone ever remembers the things that used to seem important.  My father said
that he always wanted to make me a new little chair but I was too big for a
little chair anymore.

I want to let go of things in my past.  I want to let go of things I worry
about.  I want to live in the present, a whole person; not a partial
presence with limbs stretching into past incidents of no use.

Today is a beautiful sunny day.  I suggest anyone who is reading this and is
experiencing similar weather go forth and find a swimming hole to plunge
into.  This is one of thepleasures of being human.  Enjoy it!

Enjoy.  There is something about life that must be enjoyed.  Otherwise
what's the use?  Are we here to suffer?  Merely to live?  We can affect our
own experience just by thinking it better or worse.  We might as well enjoy
it than despair.  We don't have to be stupidly happy.  Just don't be
stupidly remorseful either.

Responsibility.  Duty.  How to reconcile those with the live in the moment
feeling?  We can free ourselves of as many duties and responsibilities as
possible.  Or we can throw our duties to the wind, abandon our peers adn
companions and rush madly forward.  Or we can try to take up duties only
which allow us the freedom we need to grow.  To live in the moment.  Do not
make commitments beyond the span of time we need....

[End afternoon freewrite]