[Morning freewrite]
It is morning.  But late.  I've been sleeping in and I suppose the laziness
is starting to show.  Or else the late nights are.  Can't sleep.  Insomnia
at both ends.  I don't know what I'm going to do  (Go exercise!)

I've decided I'm going to go ask Mrs Pepper about my sleeping bag liner.  I
have to go to the library anyhow (and I might as well visit Kuratomi
Baachan too.)  So I'm going to be out and about.  Perhaps that is what's
wrong.  Have I been outside doing things for a while?  I don't know.

There is nothing in the world quite so silly as a man slowly leaning into
insanity.

I feel that I have lost my sense of direction.  My sense of humanness... I
am like a man who can see without understanding.  Things are happening that
are eyond my comprehension.  Not on the physical level, but on that deeper,
instinctual level.  I am howling at the moon.

I let the rays of sunlight warm me.  I let the hum of cars cheer me.  I let
the cool morning air greet me.  I think....

It must be daylight savings.  That must be what is causing me problems.
It's a strange occurrence, daylight savings.  You watch mornings and nights
march along, changing with a preordained, natural order.  Then, suddenly,
everything is shifted.  You can no longer depend on anything to be high or
low.  Light or dark.  Nothing makes sense anymore.... As if the moon
suddenly shone in the daytime and the sun at night.

I can look out this house and think of myself as free.  It is not nearly so
confining as the house at home.  At home the bars make everythi g more cave
like and enclosed.

I want to say that yesterday I put a growlight on the pots that were
molding.  Covered them with a mylar oven bag.  And last night I noticed
sprouts emerging from them.  Their green leaves showing through the dirt.
Three.  That's all.  But it is emcouraging, is it not?  To see life poking
up through soil?  To see something new appear?  Greenery.

How do people in deciduos forests survive the winter?  There is no green to
remind them that things are still worth living.  Pine!  Evergreens!  These
are necessary to the continued life of the soul.  Reminders that life goes
on....

Eucalyptus are evergreen.  Odd, is it not?  Australia has so many things
that make so much sense in an otherworldly way.

I am running down.  Running out.  Running through all the things to say.
There is little more right now.  I think the sleep deprivation is finally
beginning to negatively impact me.

I have bought some outdoor gear:  A pair of photon microlights.  A stove
stand (for when I go snow camping next year.)  A watch with temperature
setting.  Things were on sale so I had to buy them (last time.)  I still
want to get a candle/oil lantern.  But campmor is the best I can find and I
don't want to pay shipping just to get one item.  I know Rockfish Gap
outfitters has candoil lanterns.  I'll have to go check them out when I go
down.

I also have to find lamp oil.  c'est la vie.  I bet a wla-mart would have
some.... Just have to get there.
[End morning freewrite]

I am thinking of reorganizing the ramblings slightly.  But I'm not sure
exactly how.  My reformatting and additions to my home page have lead me to
want to experiment more with non-traditional formats.

Up 'til now I've been experimenting with ways to link text to commentary.
Using footnotes doesn't work well because you end up scrolling down the page
and back up.  So I've been thinking in terms of side bars and utilizing
margin space.  I think the front page may have some clues to enhancing that
metaphor, but I'm not certain.  Although the outer box is a comentary on the
inner box, it isn't a linked and footnoted system.  It's also only one
screen.  Using this format for larger documents would be a pain as reading
along hte edges of your screen would require quite a bit of scrolling.

But there is an immediate application to the Ramblings.  Because the
Ramblings aren't linked to each other, but they do contain thoughts that
spill over day by day, I kinda want to show the day by day progression.  A
three dimensional tunnel approach would be nifty.  The outer edge of the
tunnel is the latest rambling.  The second layer is the previous Rambling.
The innermost layer is a link to one day back (where the inner Ramble becomes
the outer and a new Ramble is loaded in the middle.)

I'm not certain how this would look, but I think it would be a good
exercise.  While I'm at it, I might add some reformatting to my entries.
Instead of using <pre> tags to contain my daily messages, I'll have my
script dynamically add <p> tags around each paragraph.  This should
make things slightly smaller.