[Morning Freewrite]
This morning my stomach is growling slightly with the coffee from yesterday.
Is it age that makes us more succeptible to things?  Or perhaps it is my
activity level or the amount of water I have drunk?  I stayed up late last
night and enjoyed a smoother coffee feeling than I have in quite a while.
Mellow.  Relaxed yet awake.  It felt wonderful.

I like the dark.  The night.  The quiet.  The cold is something I can live
with, but I've decided I don't like it as much as the dark.  Darkness.  To
hide in?  To walk alone in?  To walk solitary in?  To look for a companion?
Or merely to enjoy for itself?

I had a dream last night that only tickles the edges of my consciousness.  I
was an agent for good.  A secret Agent.  And I was converting secret agents
for evil to my side.  Not really a whole lot of information there.  An
almost recalled dream.  It was warm on a parking lot.  I remember that as
well.

My lips have been chapped for the past week.  Recovering finally.  I think
that they  might have been dry.  Or wind blown.  I'm not sure.  I need to
drink more water.  Water is a cure for everything.

Why do I drink more water when I'm out in the forest as opposed to in the
woods?  What is it that makes it so?  There's something that I don't
understand about that.  About this.  About?  I don't know.

Where am I going?  What makes sense?  Where should I go?  How should I go?
What makes any sense at all?  How where when?  What?

I see in the end there is nothing much that I can do that will make anything
mean anything to me.  Is there something that will make sense?  Or does
nothing make sense?  Does anything make sense?  What makes sense?

Sense?  Sense?  I see that sense has very little meaning sometimes.

I make very little sense.  Can you see that?  I suppose you can.  There is
very little sense in what I do.  What we do.  In what happens.  In this
world.  But we attempt to make sense from it.  That is the official swecular
view.  But the shamanic view, the religous view, the spiritualist view, is
that everything makes some sense at some level, we just have to be able to
see it.  Shamanism seems to find the most sense in the world.  Judaism
derived religons all take Job as their basis -- the world makes sense to God
we may understand it some other day, but to try now is presumptious and
prone to error.  Buddhism is a to try now is ideal, but few succeed?
Because the world does not have a cause and effect rational order it has a
holistic order.  And one can succeed in becoming one with that higher order
and thus understanding, but it is beypnd the ken of ordinary thought.

What other ideas are inherent in our religons?  The idea of forgiveness in
Christianity.  Which stems from the idea of sin.  Which stems from the idea
of sacrifice.  Perhaps.  By propriating the gods to begin with we are led to
a need not to propriate the gods... becuase they have provided their own
sacrifice out of love.  But Christianity is more than propriation -- It is
not designed to curry favour.  Instead it is designed to forgive us.  Which
implies that we need forgiveness.  Every man has sinned, is Christ's
teaching , therefore none may enter Heaven but through me.  But the ability
of a man to go through life without sinning must exist otherwise it
invalidates this idea of forgiveness.  Forgive us for being what we are?  No
-- we must be forgiven for what we do irrespective of our nature; our will.
We may will to be good but fall when we ignore what we truly want.  This is
not what judges us....
[End Morning Freewrite]
I'm excited!  I finally have this up and running.  Which means that from now on I should be able to use a web interface to add to my ramblings.  Although at the moment only daily.  I don't have any method for adding and editing between days.  This is for secutiry.  I don't want to allow people to edit my files without my knowledge.  Deleting information that I don't realize until too late.

This is great,  though.  I have a way to enter new information with only a web browser!  Yippee!  Yahoo!

What's my next web project to be?  I don't know.  Perhaps I should finish upgrading the server or create a site certificate for SSL.  No more programming for a while?  Hmmm.