[Morning Freewrite]
Getting really embedded into this computer thing.  Is it right?  Ought I to
stop?  I don't know.  There's so much out there to try.  Perhaps it makes
sense to go on working with it, attempting to change it.  Or perhaps it
makes sense to not do so.  To instead attempt to get out and away.  Life is
simplker away from the computer, but also less expansive?  Is that it?  Do I
find expansion of my mind through computers?  Do things that are in me
become more?

I don't know.  There's things that have never made sense.  THere's things
that haven't made sense for a long time.  There's things that haven't will
never make sense.  You know?  Do you know?  Can anyone know?

What is going on?  I something going on?  What's going on?  Is there
something htat goes on?  I see myself and I wonder what is going on.

I think that computers hold a great joy nd a great price.  They allow so muc
hnew exploraryion but demand so much of time and energy.  They are intricate
puzzles with no "solution"  Like life, they are a vast story being woven
even as you speak.  Even as we move along.  There is nothing truly amazing
except that we together make things.

Programs are communication?  The web is communication?  Like life there is
much that we dont' know or see until we get there.  But we are comforted to
know that we coiuld get there if we wished.  There is a place to go to.  We
do not have to stay here.  There is more.  There is an ever growing and
changing more.  Human interactions only in the cyberverse, interactions of
humans and being s and nature and animals and everything else in the real
world.  What do we find there?  Some semblance of order.  Along with the
truly integral human interaction we find a universe that has laws closer to
the surface than the real world.  Here we find that nothing may make sense
or everything may make sense.  We have belief that there is some reason to
the whole thing, but we do not know what.  In the cyberverse there is a god
a reason, a nature behind everything -- the art of programmers around the
world.  This is how we interact.  The seemingly random fluctuations of
network up, network down, not enough RAM, etc are quickly interpretted by
our new priesthood and we are assured that this isn't a random event at all.
Instead it is an anticipated event.  A limitation of "technology" -- really
of the people who designed the technology many years ago.  Equally, there
are people now who are working to enhance and change that technology to meet
our new needs.

So what things does the computer world offer?  A rich tapestry of being (not
as rich as true being but still rich).   Human interaction.  Interaction
with things slightly beyond our ken, but still within the ken of our
priesthood.  A more ordered existence.  A sense that things are and will
scontinuosly move forward.  There is nothing but forward movement.  Forward
movement.  Forward movement.  You see?  We do not have to go into ourselves.
We have the illusion of progress.  Not just in our technology, but also
within ourselves.  We think that there is learning taking place within
ourselves as we get better, older, faster, more knowledgable.  There is
nothing that we need to do.
To make this happen.  There is only to do things that I have to do to....
There is something that makes right.  The morning thaqt That I shouldn't .
[End morning Freewrite]