[Begin Mission Statement]

	Do I want to work or not?  This is a question, is it not?  To do things for others or for myself.  To make money or to continue to live off of others.  And what?  What is my justification for living off others?  To explore who I am I suppose.  To figure out where I am going?  Or what makes me happy?  Or what I wish to do for the rest of my life?  The supposed rationale is to write and explore.  But I am finding very little in writing to keep me going.  Because I do not wish to write?  Because I wish to do something else?

What has the recent experience with Isis taught me?  That there is more to my life than physical certainly.  And how does that expand to other things?  There is more to life than physical.  There is spiritual as well.  And so I should be seeking the spiritual in my life because I can never be content with the physical merely.  Look for something beyond the mundane ken.

But what is there and how do I wish it?  Is it only spiritual if it cannot be explained?  Or only spiritual if it lays down moral law?  What is spiritual to me?  The pursuit of higher knowledge.  The acting upon higher knowledge.  What is higher knowledge then?

Higher knowledge is the gathered information that has meaning above and beyond ourselves.  It is not laws and rules.  It does inform laws and rules.  It is an observation of things beyond our current ken, but they need not remain mysterious forever.  Is this okay with me?  If I could discover (or if there was discovered) the mechanism by which miracles occur, could I then still be happy?  Or would I then need to find something undiscovered?  Is being a pioneer here okay as well?  Or do I quest after an unattainable?

I.e.:  Is the spiritual realm and spiritual truth that I seek only so because there is mystery in it.  If, instead of mystery I were to find answers, what would occur?  Would I be happy operating within a known framework?  Or am I only happy when things are unattainable.  When I cannot find God.  When I cannot find love.  When things exist that I can strive to see but can never reach?

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